What the hell are you thinking Azee. He is not going to be available for his entire life mainly for a person like you Azee. I should realize it. You already had someone, you are. I was, how to explain eh this feeling. The first time i saw you saying love to someone who basically opposite of your sex. And it is not for me, for someone whom you call it is just like an adik. Now i know we are never being more than friends, not today, tomorrow, not even in a million years. We are absolutely stands for the tittle "friends". I think i already had a slap from universe. I said to stop hoping and waiting, i did saying those but i don't. That is why he keep leaving and haunting my life over and over. No wonder. I was extremely thought he would stay this time. I keep thinking of you whenever there is any men came to my life. I still believe in you. I keep consider of the decision of waiting for you or have an entire new life. And i keep pushing people away. At the end i'm the one who is damage inside and out.