This is me, meet a boy, knowing him for a weeks, and the next morning, hey i don't think he suites me, i'm not ready for a relationship, he is this, he is that, he is pathetic and stuff while the truth is i'm too afraid to fall. To fall in love and to fall down. The heartbreakin, the suffer, the commitment, the wrong decisions and all. I'm just too afraid to face that. And knowing here i am all alone, i thought it is the best for me, being alone, not hurting, not suffering, doesn't have to act any commitment myself, no mistakes, i'm all fine but the truth is, i'm not. I'm just not. i just wish i meet a man who is stays with me whenever awful and fool i have become. Stays because of i have tons of stories to tell him and he is pleased to listen to it. A man who i didn't afraid to fall with, a man who will giving up anything just to be with me. A man who never counts any of my miserable words and my mistakes. A man who plans his future with me. A man who i would willingly to make him my only exception. A man who i would make him as my first thing after all of the things in this world. A man who totally understands the ups and down of me, know how to handle the unstable situation of me. I wish this man totally is totally exist for me.